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How apologizing to my Friends made me a better Friend!
One of the greatest things I've learned in life is how to be my own best friend.
Somewhere around 2013, I found myself reflecting on many of the bad decisions I’d made in my life. There I was hating myself and being my own worst enemy. I was re-living the darkest days of my past over and over and over again. The heartbreak, the betrayal, the lonely nights but one day something clicked. I thought to myself “You were 17, you were a kid, what did you know?”
"This was my first lesson in forgiveness"
That was the moment I realized I had to let the things of my past go, more importantly I had to realize that I could not change what I could not control and that was the past. I had to forgive myself.
"I even apologized to myself for being so hard on myself"
In a moment of reflection I had an outer body reflection of the past that allowed me to see myself in my most valued relationships, my friendships!
I learned how important my role was in setting the tone of my friendships. Within my Self reflection, I realized growth is important in healthy relationships. Growing within ourselves and in relationships is what makes them stronger. In my reflection I grew to learn that my naivety to who I am was a weakness not only to myself by to my best girl friends.
Moment of truth, I saw the world with rose colored glasses and it affected my ability to rationalize truth. With them off I now realize I wasn't a best friend because I wasn't the best version of myself.
My lack of honesty is best described as the times when one of my girlfriend would call needing the best advice possible and I failed to be a true and honest friend every time because I told them what I thought they wanted to hear out of fear of the truth hurting them. All the while, the truth only made them stronger and better.
Those days were short lived, as I evolved and desired something more true, deep and meaningful in my life.
In being honest with myself I became more honest with my girlfriends and I'm grateful to have a sisterhood built on Trust, Love and Honesty.
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